What do I want and what do I need?
Two different questions that pressure and lead
To answers that cause us to beg and plead
For things we deserve yet somehow believed
that we should know better and keep those buried.
Hold back stay silent play it safe until,
You prove that you don't have baggage to reveal
You're not like the others who shared how they feel
They were desperate. Couldn't mask anxious thoughts or sit still.
Asking them things like "commit? Make it real?"
How naive that we thought that was part of the deal.
Break the rules and catch feelings? he'll lose sight of the thrill.
Left feeling lonely if we don't go along
Wondering if the rules we swear by are all wrong
We bottle up emotions because those don't belong
On the face of a girl part of any love song
We cry about it but only in secret
Then brush it all off, patterns
repeated
Why so much shame when they take but don't keep it
Empty from pretending, yet claim we're completed
We try hard to win, yet again are defeated
Questioning what is wrong with us, why they let us go
One tiny moment we slipped and let the truth show
Emotions took over, and we let him know
That we really cared and feelings were hidden below
We feel tricked and think back to the signs that we saw
When they made us feel like they were in awe
When they saw us without seeing a flaw
Why did they pull back and leave us to draw
Our own conclusions after letting us fall
"Too much, too much. hold it in," they say.
Make a demand and he might run away.
Make them uncomfortable? no don't put your feelings on display.
Who cares if you're unhappy, it's okay.
As long as you win at the game that they play.